seriously, i have no idea why i actually make a tumblr..
and i think i might start using tumblr more than i use LJ..
i have no idea why..
but one thing for sure..long post will be send to here..
tumblr will be my picture spam !!
:D

i'm falling for you HARD.&& this is going to be crazy for me.
and you know why right..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR  PRETTY 김 희 철 !!
SELAMAT HARI JADI BABY !!
hope you have a blast today celebrating..
even MY baby was screaming for you during performance..
superly cute !!
i looooove it alot..
have fun yea~~

oh, anyways..someone is added at my top 5 now..
CHOI SIWON


you have no idea how he did get inside..
HAHAHAHAHA
well thanks to Strong Heart..ekkekekex
i wonder what will happen..
who will be my #2.5
hmmms..

the boys look extremely gorgeous..
i've been screencapping for soooooo looooong !!
finally i have to admit that my bias list are going haywire
cos i looooooove all of them too much..
but my top 4..

PARK JUNGSOO


KIM HEECHUL


KIM RYEOWOOK


CHO KYUHYUN


i have no idea why but these 4 guys are making me fall in looooove
with them.. well, teukie has been my bias..kyuhyun WAS a bias of mine..
but now i want him back !! plus heechul and ryeowook too !!  LOL
ahhh~~ i cannot decide !!
i wanna watch the MV again..
kekekekx

after looking at this picture, i have to agree with the person
who did this..i mean yeah !! they are giving themselves some justice..


as for the boys too..

and when hyuk tweeted this..
all the more i believe that ELFs will craved this name,
SUPER JUNIOR
not in our mind but in our HEARTs.. <3

i swear to you..after aisyah tweeted this,


i went to depress mode for awhile..
and when she showed me the sukira pictures,
i kinda started crying..idk why but the tears won't stop..
cos i know for the fact that i'm supposed to be with her..
cos i know for the fact that i'm supposed to meet leeteuk personally..
cos i know for the fact that i'm supposed to be in korea to see the boys perform..
but then, everything is not happening..it was never meant to be from the very start..
cos some ppl just wouldn't wanna fulfill his/her promise to me..

 

 

have you ever heard a mother holding a grudge towards her daughter?
and to think that her daughter is only 18yrs old..
what could she have done that made her mom hold a grudge towards her?

sometimes i dun feel a sense of belonging anywhere..
with family breaking up..
and someone holding a grudge towards me..
it simply hurts alot..
all i can say is that i nvr feel loved at all..
none from my family.,
after knowing that she has been holding a grudge towards me all these years..
all the love given to me are fake isn't it?
it was forced into her..
no wonder when i wanted to change my course it's a big NO.
and when i wanna go korea, a promise turns out to be fake too..

sometimes i wish i was never born in this world..
to think that i'm suffering in silence and nobody knows
what is happening to me..
real love?
HAH!!
as if i'm gonna believe in it anymore..
all are fake..
i guess it true..
the person that is closest to you
might be you true enemy..